>#24 – A CONSTANT
>First, starting off with some recent yarny goodness – the cutest slippers with my favorite yellow buttons, which I knitted as a gift for little baby-to-be, Olive.
Now onto more serious business: I’ll admit that if I’ve only gained one piece of knowledge over the last almost two years of grad school, it’s this: life will always be changing on you… generally without notice and often not in ways you imagined or planned. In the last year, I’ve felt as if I’m standing in the ocean, getting hit by one crashing wave after the next, with no clue what’s coming at me. And although these experiences are all at once upsetting and exciting and certainly character building, one constant has remained – an urge to create things.
In the moments when it seems like circumstances are destroying me, I have been retreating to my knitting needles, my notebook, my sewing machine, my embroidery hoop, and there I can find a sense of calm. I haven’t produced a great amount of work and I can’t say much of it has been all that challenging (Come on, how many variants of a knit beanie can one person make in a month?), but making simple items, especially for valuable people in my life, is rewarding and creates the illusion of routine when my life is at its most chaotic.
It’s not easy to admit when you’re not on the best emotional footing. It’s even harder to recognize when it grows to affect everything you do. Only recently have I noticed how my crafting habits as of late are a reflection of my current, vulnerable state of mind. In the next few posts here, I plan to explore just that – so indulge me, if you will, as I reflect on these things. And don’t worry, there will be lots of FOs and yarn porn to share along the way. Up for a little blog therapy, anyone? 🙂